Bulimia, Anorexia, Food Addiction--Healing From Within

As a Personal Life Coach, I have come across an array of issues in my clients that have needed to be transformed. Because I have been one who has been brought to my knees on more than one occasion by disordered eating, I closely relate to those who are attracted into my coaching hands who are dealing with such thought processes.

This post is for all those who are drawn to this page because either they themselves, or someone they love is dealing with a thought process that has them feeling trapped in the vicious loop that anorexia, bulimia, exercise addiction, laxative and diuretic abuse can cause.

Anorexia, bulimia, exercise addiction, binge eating and alike are all symptoms of anxiety that has been caused by an emotional wound.

It is crucial that this concept is understood.

Eating disorders represent a wound. They are like the white puss that shows up around an infected gash, or bacteria in the body. The eating disorder however is NOT the wound, much like pain and puss are the result of an infection, but they are not the infection.

If you are to heal, it is essential that you allow your mind to begin separating your SELF from your disordered eating thought processes. You are NOT your dysfunctional thinking pattern. Your thinking pattern is symptomatic of a wound you have internalized, and your behavior is simply a physical manifestation in your time space reality of your thought processes...

Just as you would not blame the bullet that pierced your arm, or the infection or the pain that showed up in your body as a result of being shot, you must learn to become objective of your experience, rather than become the experience. Just as if you were shot, you would not become the bullet, the puss or the pain, you must learn to separate your self from your behaviors and begin to understand that your behaviors are a symptom of something you internalized.

What you experience internally, will always, without question show up in your physical reality.

When a pure innocent, still untouched by others judgements infant enters this world it cries when its hungry, uncomfortable, angry or sad, and when it is happy, joyful, and content it smiles. This is normal. This is healthy.

What bulimics, anorexics, and even cutters must remember is, 'is that infant is us'. That infant we once were is who we are at our core. Once, we all responded to our internal guidance system appropriately, and had no concept of harming ourselves.

As we aged, we became aware that others judge us, even if their intent was for our better good, we--we hypersensitive beings we--internalized that sense of judgement and in turn learned to believe that the world was unsafe. For whatever the reason; and it does no good to judge others--but for whatever the reason, we felt judged, we felt bad, and we hid from the world the pain their criticism, harsh judgements, their inconsideration, their perceptions of us, their sarcasm, their withdrawal, their whatever--caused a dis-ease within our minds, which lead to a disconnect from our own souls, the one our infant selves came into this world divinely connected to.

Today, as a result of feeling unsafe and out of control, now if you are depressed, you binge, purge, starve, exercise compulsively, or cut. Deeper, now as a result of the loop your brain has created to alleviate some of that anxiety through ineffective coping mechanisms, you find yourself feeling more like a passenger in the car called your life than the driver. Today, as a result of the momentum caused by your wound and all its subsequent anxiety compounded by your ineffective coping behaviors, you feel out of control, lost, ashamed, guilt ridden and worthless.

You are NOT crazy, or bad, or ill because your mind is trying NOT to feel the wounds you force your self to eat, deny or beat up.

You are NOT crazy, or bad, or ill because your mind has you carry out a behavior that allows you to, in some way, unhealthy or otherwise--to ease the anxiety you feel internally as a result of trying to escape your emotions.

If I have learned anything through my healing journey it is this; 'thoughts become things' and when I think my feelings don't matter, then my feelings don't matter. Equally, when I care more about what others think about me than what I think about me, I am consumed by anxiety over what others think about me. I have learned that all things that show up in my environment, good or bad, in someway are a reflection of what is going on inside of me, and many times it is also a reflection of what has been done to me.

I know now that no matter what has been done to me, I do not have to allow it to become me.

I know now that others that my love of self, does not require that others love me, validate me, embrace me, or deem me worthy of their love.

I know now that when others thought they were loving me, they were unaware of how I was internalizing their way of expressing love.

I know now that what I think about me is more important than what you, my society, my family or what my friends think about me.

I know now that sometimes the people we love the most, love us the least, and that that fact should have no bearing on how deeply I love and appreciate myself.

I know now no one is coming to the rescue. All I ever needed was to know in my heart on a soul level as well as on an intellectual level, that I am good, no matter what anyone else thinks.

My worth had nothing to do with how thin I was, how healthy I ate, how much exercise I did, or how often I smiled. I am worthy simply because I am, and so are YOU.

Idiot Savant--Autistics; Perhaps We Are The Idiots

We are all forms of life force energy.

Consciousness is a form of life force energy.

Consciousness is found in every dimension of our time space reality.

It is not exclusive to mankind.

The earth is conscious. Trees, grass, and flowers breath.

The sky is conscious. It expands, it exchanges gases, and it moves.

Animals are conscious. They are interconnected within their own dimension, entangled on a quantum level with similar beasts who share the same perceptional dimensional realities.

So called inanimate objects, are not still. They too are vibrational beings at their core.

Human beings share their own perception of reality, and exist on a quantum level with their own kind.

When the energy that creates the ability for a being to breath stops, physical life ends in the physical dense matter of the body. The life force however of that being lives on, and when it leaves the physical body it joins similar energies outside the physical body; outside that physical dimension.

If these ideas are true, then all of us have the potential to 'step into' whatever reality we desire while here on this physical plane. This is a multi dimensional universe with dimensions most human beings cannot perceive, not because they do not have the ability to do so, but because they do not 'believe' in the ability to do so. So caught up in the illusions of their life, they fail to think outside of the box they have thought themselves into, and continue on running the rat race they presume life is.

We are highly perceptible human beings with possibilities far greater than most of us can imagine. Savants are examples of human potential. If it is possible for a being who is presumed 'mentally handicapped' in some way to be brilliant, it is possible that we--the observers and labelers of so called idiot savants are actually the idiots, mentally handicapped by our short sided understandings of human potential.

Savants, autistics, and so called 'handicapped' beings perceive their realities uniquely, as we all do. We therefore, unknowingly all exist in an extraordinary multi dimensional world, whether we consciously acknowledge that to be true or not.

We all would fair better in this place, if we could all accept this as so, instead of ignorantly thinking everyone on this planet was intended to think, look, behave, and do as we do...

How To Enjoy Life

So often we beings forget why we were created in the first place.

So conditioned to assume and thus believe in the visions that have been flashed across our eyes since birth, we beings fall prey to ignorance. Because we have not been taught to question our programming, we naively, and perhaps ignorantly accept it. We rarely stop to wonder why our ego's are so big, or why we tend to get angry or sad over certain situations.

Most of us have not been taught how 'not to' react. Instead we are guided by our impulses, which have been spoon fed to us through various societal conditioning tools. Whether those tools were in the form of organized religions, brotherhoods, sisterhood, familial laws or profit motivated advertising, most of us are unaware of how little of 'us' is in us.

A being who does not know his own mind, is one who does not own his own mind. A being who fails to assess his own thoughts, is living only half a life; for to live is to live through volition and choice, and without awareness there can be no choice.

While all this existentialism sounds quite complicated, its not. Life was meant to flow downstream. At our core we are all love, and the more we remind ourselves of this fact, the easier our life becomes.

When a being loves themselves, they learn to tune into what brings them peace, and learns to avoid 'thinking', 'others', and 'situations' that attract chaos. When a being loves the people in his/her life, there is a natural tendency to shelter, nurture, and encourage rather than to deceive, manipulate, and control. When authentic love is present in a being, there can be no fear and no anxiety. When a couple shares authentic love, between them is only a desire to nurture and envelope the other with more love.

When love of self, and love of the others in your life is the cornerstone of your existence, life cannot help but flow downstream. Life is difficult because people make their lives difficult by turning away from love in some way, whether that is in not loving themselves, or in the dishonoring of those that love them.

If your desire is to enjoy your life, keep ever present in your minds eye a few facts.

Know that society is built on profit, and profit is rarely made on happy people who don't get sick, don't get divorced, and plant flowers as a form of recreation.

Know that your ego is tied to programming, and that the bigger it is, the bigger your personal headaches will be--guaranteed. Even the bible states; "The humble shall inherit the earth."

Know that before you the earth spun in direct proximity to the other planets of this solar system, and after you it will continue to spin, re-create life, and go on just fine without you and your mindset.

Know that unless you know why you think the way you do, 'you' aren't thinking at all.

Knowledge vs Experience

One who cannot conceive that he is more than his physical body, will be unable to gain knowledge. While he will gain the experience, he will miss the totality of the experience, and fail to gain the knowledge the experience was designed to bring.

Beings who are unable, unwilling, or simply choose not to see themselves beyond their thoughts, will fail to gain wisdom, insight, or understanding of him self, others, or the world.

When one does not see, accept or acknowledge the spiritual part of him or her self, and thus stays separate from his/her higher self, knowledge cannot be gained.

If we can conceive that our physical eyes cannot see or experience visually another continent, the mind knows it exists, so therefore the being can one day plan to visit that continent. But if the being knows nothing of this continent, it will have no knowledge of it, and will never experience the wonders of that continent.

And so it is with the spiritual part of man. If a being refuses to accept he/she has a higher, wiser self, its experience will be just that--an experience--void of the ability to see past his/her physicality, and that being will lack knowledge, insight, and understanding.

It is like living a life with only one half of the body, one half of the mind, and one half of the brain...

We Are All Brothers and Sisters

The world needs more people like you in it.

The very fact that you are reading this entry is evidence that your mind is more expansive than the majority of the worlds population. I know this because I track my articles views.

It is a wonderful thing to know and live truth. None of us are not connected to one another. None of us are not--at a quantum level--entangled. We are all, regardless of our race, creed, or religion, in fact, brothers and sisters.

It is my hope, and deeper, my knowing, that one day the beings of this place will no longer define others by the color of their skin, or by what clothes they wear, or what car they drive. One day it will matter little, or perhaps not at all, what another looks like or who that person calls god. One day, the generations we have laid the groundwork for, will know that all beings are from the same family--the human family.

It is the very concept of separation that causes the havoc on this planet we call earth. It is separation from love when one spouse disregards the feelings of another, and it is separation from love when one person steals from another, and it separation of love when one deceives another.

Man, so eagerly in search of peace, falls short of his understanding of himself, and often times draws into his experience the chaos he so ferociously protests. If one is not a channel of peace, how then can peace be a part of this mans experience?

If a man is easily irritated, seeks only outside of himself for satisfaction and or validation, or if he does not yet own his own mind, is lead by societal conditioning and falls prey to believing happiness can only be found outside of himself whether in the form of money, sex, drugs, or so on, how then can this man ever find the peace his false self tells him he is in search of?

Peace cannot be found out there. Peace is a choice made from within, and it requires releasing ones programming and conditioning to ideas of separation, fear and silly tit for tat mental justification games.

Peace is found when attachments to 'things' are surrendered. Peace is found when a being honors the love of self, and dedicates ones life to inner peace. In recognition of ones desire for peace, the being then no longer attracts chaos. A being whose heart, mind and soul is truly dedicated to peace, will side step others antagonistic ways, honor those he says he loves, and will learn to view other beings as expressions of his own self.

This life experience is a play, and in it we get to be who we say we are--or not.

Namaste...

You're Divine

Do you know that you are divine?

Do you know that you are as loved as any mountain, or any sea?

Do you know that your mind is not you--you are the observer of breath...not breath...not thought...

Do you know that love surrounds you--and only you can separate yourself from it?

Do you know, that in any moment you can enter a 'no thought state' and find your 'self' again?

Namaste...

The Powerful Potential of Your Thoughts

When energy is flowing in one direction, it is wonderfully powerful; think about a lightning bolt.

When energy is moving in various directions, it is far less powerful than it could be; think about static electricity.

If thoughts are essentially energy in the form of ideas, imagine the force you were meant to be when your mind became physically focused. Imagine further the power of two physically focused human beings consumed by the same goal. Imagine the power behind the intent of combined physically focused energy in the form of thought.

This is the kind of energy that the universe is made of.

It is also the kind of energy that is responsible for destroying aspects of our lives as well.

Thought can create, or it can destroy. The free will of man is what decides a beings fate, although the ego will insist to its own mind that others, circumstances or things are to blame for his/her unhappy state of being.

After listening to another amazing clip by Esther Hicks, I am once again expanded by the idea that spontaneous healing is in fact possible, and probable. When Jesus laid hands on the sick, his desire for their wellness overpowered the sick persons concept of themselves. And when Jesus told the sick, "Go now you are healed, and tell no one", His reasons for insisting the healed person keep their secret to themselves is simple. Jesus didn't want any unfaithful person interrupting the healed persons new healthy thoughts. It is doubt that makes us sick.

We do no one any good when we see lack in them, and we do even less good when we see lack in ourselves.

Holding people in our minds the way we would like to see them, and refusing to give into their complaints about others or even themselves, is the key to healing.

Intentionally focusing our thoughts in a powerful way, and then coming together to co create specific desired realities together, is the cornerstone of manifesting our own realities as well as healing ourselves and others along the way.

Co Dependency Is Ruining Your Life

Co dependency is rampant in our society--perhaps even in the world.

From divorces to disease, ( dis-ease ), we are a people confused by what our true purpose here on this planet is about.

When we teach our children to worry more about what the neighbors think about our family than what they think about themselves, we are teaching them to disown themselves and to give up their right to stay connected to their 'self'.

When we buy things we cannot afford with the intent to impress others or to appear as if we have more money than we actually do--because we worry about what others think about us--we disown our selves, with the notions that what we insanely, 'think others think about us' is more important than being honest about our money situation even to ourselves, we are recreating co dependent pathways in our brains.

When we date people who are not good for us, because they 'look' good or have money, we disown our higher purpose for peace and happiness for the sake of the ego, which falsely has us believing that what others think about us is more important than what we think about ourselves.

When we stay in relationships with people who are dysfunctional because we believe we will eventually change them, and thus one day find ourselves feeling good about ourselves because our sick partner finally saw the light, we are giving into co dependent mind sets that ultimately disconnects us from our true selves, and our source.

When we worry more about the people in our lives who worry nothing about us, we teach them that what they think about us is more important than what we think about us, we are contributing to co dependent thinking.

And when we good natured co dependents who think we are out to save the world, expect the world to change because we think we know better, we are essentially forcing our self righteous wants on others, rather than accepting others for who they are...

And when we act like the martyrs we tell ourselves we are, we are behaving in a dysfunctional co dependent way and blaming others for our personal misery...

If the world is to finally find that peace we all come into this world seeking, then the world at large will need to let go of the notions that others have to be what and who we want them to be.

If you are to find inner peace then you must learn to practice on the field of your own mind the art of allowing.

Your work here on this planet has nothing to do with gaining material things...although many beings would argue that point.

Beings want material things not for the material thing, but for the 'feeling' that material thing will bring.

It is not the car you are after. It is the 'feeling' you believe the car will bring you.

We are all in search of a 'specific feeling or state of being'. We all say we want happiness, but many of us fail to acknowledge that our happiness has absolutely NOTHING to do with others.

A state of happiness is a practiced state of being. Happiness and peace are emotional vibrational states that once found and mastered, one learns to accept that others do not have to be, do or think like they do in order to stay in alignment with who they are.

In time and space this may seem to some as selfishness, and in some ways it is. But it can be no other way. Your life is not your life if your mind is under the illusion that your purpose is to worry more about others happiness than your own.

The key is to allow others to be who they are, even if who they are you disagree with.

The key is to not do the things that will cause chains of events that will disrupt your life.

The key is to appreciate peace, and happiness and those who bring more of those experiences your way, and to begin to turn away from those who do not.

The key is to let go of those who drain you out of love, and to allow them to play out their dysfunctional patterns without your interference. They'll get to where they need to go a whole lot faster without you telling them how you think they should live their life.

The key is to not get too far pulled out of alignment when the storms come, so that you can be like a beacon of light, rather than darkened by it all.

Your purpose here on earth is simple...be happy...mind your own business...let others be who they want to be...and still be happy...

Namaste...

Why Does Life Have To Be So Hard? Making Peace With Your Life

Often we hear people say things like, "Why does life have to be so hard", or "Life is so hard."

If our brain is nothing more than a computer processing tool, it is not difficult to see how we--the data entry clerks of our existence contribute to the very paradigm so many of us complain about.

Life is not supposed to be hard. However, without the benefit of contrast, none of us would know what we truly want or what makes us feel good. Without knowing what doesn't feel good in out guts, then we would not be able to fully grasp the glorious feeling of appreciation.

Those who were denied love as children, find themselves, if they allow the experience into their lives, resolved to love more deeply as adults.

Those who have been deceived, find that honesty and truth are states they appreciate perhaps more intensely than someone who has not known the pain of being hurt by lies.

Those who have known sickness, appreciate more the little things in life so many do not even acknowledge, because they have an awareness of death others spend little time contemplating.

Life gets messy sometimes for one reason only, and that is to wake us up.

If your life is messy, do not "attach" your self--your state of being to the emotions of the moment. Instead, become an observer of your feelings--step back and bless the feelings of misalignment within you for helping you notice when your life was getting off course...then with love, and with gratitude start making decisions that move you closer to the inner peace you crave.

Sometimes in that space--in the space where there is no sound--just the realization that a decision is required to pull you back into alignment, there is struggle. It is within that gap that souls slip, years tick by, and life escapes us. But, if you resolve yourself to feeling good more often, your need to make decisions in that space will lessen, because it will be your natural state of being as well as desire to not allow your thoughts, or others to pull you out of alignment in the first place...

Suicide--The Call Home

When I was a young adolescent, and contemplating suicide, I wondered if perhaps I was crazy for wanting to die. Everyone else I knew seemed so happy.

A much older version of me now looks back, and understands that in many ways that child is in fact gone. I have died and been born many times, and will go on doing so as my mind expands and my understanding of who I am in this time space reality continues to grow. This is not only true for me, but for you as well. Who you are today, is not who you were ten years ago, nor should you be.

Suicide is not about death. It is about a wanting--a wanting for peace. The more off course a soul is the greater the call of death. The more pure and gentle a soul--the more intense are those external experiences that become like razors to a souls heart. Suicide can become like a trumpeters blow, calling a soul home--back to peace.

The tragedy is not in the death...The tragedy is in the life that, for whatever reason was deprived of its right to be--to exist--and to know joy.

The tragedy is not in the resting of the soul. Instead, it is in the experiences of the life that learned it was not good enough--that it was ill--weak--inappropriate--defective, and not worthy.

But even death is an illusion. As are all our silly so called mundane problems--for life for all beings is a temporary thing--more like a piece of dust traveling through space than a mountain on a molehill.

Life equals life and its value is not determined by race, creed, religion or by dollars and cents. All beings--all life exists by the same luck of the draw. Only ignorance and short sidedness could believe anything less.

Brothers and sisters all are we. The earth our mother, heaven our father, and life the gift of the universe itself. The trees protect us, the grass comforts our feet, and the sun blankets us in warmth. Rain washes us, renews and restores us, and reminds us to sit back and be thankful for it all.

Love all things, if not with your words, with your heart, and remember often that all life is a temporary thing, and that even death itself is an illusion. Death is the door that returns us to the place we existed before we entered this physical time space reality, wherever that place is...