On The Road Back To Me

I am currently working on my next book, 'On The Road Back To Me'.  In it I will discuss how I struggled to reinvent my thought process towards healthier ideas, so that I could spare my children the splintering effects of codependent thinking processes and behaviors.

Finding The Road Back To Me was one thing.  Staying On The Road Back To Me was quite a different journey than the first.

In life we are bombarded in every moment with choices.  We may not consciously keep ourselves ever aware of this concept, but it is my belief that we should.

Many times I disowned my right to choose, and instead stayed in chaotic, toxic, unsatisfying places, because at the very least things were predictable.  Afraid of change, and a deep rooted fear of the unknown, rooted in the notion that I could or should not trust my own self, kept my stymied much of my life.

Throwing ourselves into an abyss for the sake of healthier, and happier days is a courageous act, for we have no bearings to help us navigate the future unknown terrains.

All too often we beings fail to rely on our ability to choose, and to trust our internal guidance system, the one that so instinctively lets us know by way of our emotions, whether we are heading in the right or wrong direction.  We beings choose to stay where we are -- mentally, and continue doing what we did the day before, simply because we fail to challenge our thoughts to think a different thought.

We think others should think like us, or do what we do, or want what we want, and get stuck in the byproduct of resistant thinking.

Change is like being dropped off in a foreign country with a blindfold on.  Its that intimidating, that daunting, and that life zapping.  Nothing is familiar.  Nothing sounds like home, and nothing feels right.  So accustomed to dysfunction, we know nothing of the sweet aromas of possibility, or hope, or of letting go.

For those of us who find the courage to take the leap into the abyss of the unknown, most of us discover that we are more aerodynamic than we ever realized.  As the dust of newness settles, and we begin to learn to ease up on our resistance to change, we come to rely on the one source that we often ignored -- our inner being.

Your inner being and mine wants only one thing -- joy -- that can only by found by way of love.

Our ego's -- our minds -- our patterned thought processes, fails to allow new tracks to be laid out in the brain.  So afraid of change, or of being made to feel vulnerable, our ego's help us to learn how to distract from those things that challenge our predictable lives and protects our false identities from being exposed to others.

We play the game.  We smile on cue.  We do bad things behind others backs.  We never tell the truth, especially not to ourselves.  And in all of it, we deny our right to be in love with -- truth -- joy -- others -- and life itself.

In order to be truly happy, we beings must learn to tell the complete truths, especially to ourselves.  Because if we don't, we miss out on the ultimate human experience.

Love your 'self'.  Know what your priorities are.  Follow your bliss.  Challenge your old thought patterns.  Don't be so resistant to thinking new thoughts. And most important, be gentle with your self and others.  Journeys are meant to be shared.  When our priority is love, and not to be right, we simply cannot get it wrong...

Namaste...

The Joy of Letting Go

As time passes, and my emotional self catches up with this time and space reality, I find peace in letting go.

The easing up of resistance, which I so often feel in my chest ( or to those in the 'healing' circuit -- the heart chakra) is where I can sense this angst slipping away.

On auto pilot no more, I am more in touch with unease and its reasons for being a part of me than ever before.  My job then, is to remind myself often to use the divine ability to detach from angst when I begin to feel my peace slipping away.  The goal being to stop pinching myself off from what is my birthright -- joy.

There is fear in the atmosphere. And when we stop reminding ourselves that we are enough, and that most of us really don't need all the things we think we do, fear rises up from within.  We then get swept up in the equivalent negative external frequencies, and discover that what was inside of us, is now also outside of us, mirroring the angst that so creepily showed up when we stopped paying attention to our point of focus.

Human, but determined to be ever conscious that I am more than just flesh stuck to bones, and that this universe is but a mirror of that which I am on an emotional and thus vibrational level,  it behooves me to stay aware, connected to my true 'self'.

I am happy, on purpose, and strive to be no matter what...

It isn't always an easy task, but it is worth the effort...

Namaste...

Still Learning To Soothe The Little Girl In Me

After the release of my first book, The Road Back To Me, I was on a sort of high for approximately two weeks.  Then it began to hit me. My parents might read my book, and then what?  What would I say, and how would I feel when they approached me and asked why I felt the need to tell the world about how I was treated when I was a child.

Surprisingly even to this now wiser adult, I found myself being sucked into a very familiar emotional playing field.  I noticed myself feeling as if I were shrinking by worry about what my parents were going to think, as well as feel.  All too easily I began to slip into a psychological groove that I have fought the past twelve years to remove myself from.  And that scared me.

For a few days, there were sleepless nights, headaches, and even heart palpitations.  Brain fog settled in where sun used to shine.  Gone momentarily were my 'deliberate happy' thoughts, and in their place came the stench of old but familiar angst.

I realize now as an author who found the strength to write a book that let's most of her families fat cats out of the bag, that my journey is not over.  In many ways it has just begun.

While I fully appreciate the fact that I am the owner of my own reality, and if I do or say something bad, or hurt the ones that I love in my life now, it is a lack within me that caused the hurt or betrayal that finds itself on my psyches doorstep, I still find myself struggling with hurting others even unintentionally.

It is not an easy thing for me to defend my feelings or my intent, even when I know in my souls heart that I have not intended malice.  When faced with the notion that -- I-- or something -- I did has in some way wounded one that I love, there is an emotion so toxic that rises up within me, that my body feels as if she has been doused with gasoline from within.

I am a tender soul, and in my world people would be loving, kind, generous, considerate, and most importantly trustworthy.  Men, and women would say what they mean, and mean what they say.  Money would be a thing we might not need, because the world would be full of people who took care of one another.  In my world, the animals of the land would be treated like family pets, and only the wild would eat the wild.  We'd all be herbavores, thin, limber and jovial.  Men would respect other men's wives, and wives would respect themselves.  Love would be our utmost priority, and personal integrity would be revered.

This is who I am and who I was, in every cell of my being, who as a child was told in small ways and large, that I was nothing.

The contrast between my inner and outer realities split me open, and caused many toxic emotional swamps.  And now I understand my healing is still on going.

I have come to a mountain within my own mind, that urges me to sit and rest for awhile.  The Road Back To Me has taken its toll, and it is time to take in the view.

I am thankful for awareness, and its never ending ability to grow wider as I grow wiser.

And I am grateful for the little girl in me who never let me forget who I really am.

I am a healer, an empathetic soul who wishes only to help others heal too.  My book, although I know this to be true in the deepest rooms of my soul, was never intended to hurt anyone, but nonetheless it inevitably will.

The truth is often not the white picket fences we wish to convince others it is.  Our egos are not straight edged or squeaky clean.  They never are.  In fact the ego is a universal thing.  It is the mindset of men and women everywhere that is the cause of all chaos, distrust, and distain.  We can all step into it, turn from it, or run as far away from its miserable vortex as we can.

As a man thinks, so shall he become.

So today dear friends, I choose to remember who I am, and why I wrote a book that will most definitely hurt the ones that I love.

I wrote my book and exposed my pain because I know I am not alone.  There are many others who have been taught to believe that their feelings are but a minor detail, or worse, as if their feelings are irrelevant -- inconvenient.

It is important for you as well as for me, to consistently draw to mind our ultimate truth.

We all entered this planet as divine human souls, full of infinite human potential.  What we were programmed and conditioned to believe was not our fault.

You are love, I am love, and this is why when I realize that something that I have done or said, hurts another, it always hurts me too.  It is not in alignment with who I am.

It is my purpose on this planet, to strive through and beyond the residual toxicity that lingers still, so that I may help others find the courage to want and feel deserving of a more fulfilling life, while on this earth, your home and mine.

Namaste.

When Little Girls Tell The Truth

My book has been available now for one week.  As of today it is ranked 22 on Amazon.com's bestseller list.

It warms me to know that perhaps somewhere is a soul who, through my story may feel not so alone anymore.

A member of my family has begun letting me know he believes it was wrong of me to write a book about my family.  He said that he thought I was selling them out just to sell books.  And of course, he is wrong.

When I was little, I was invalidated in big ways and small.  Labeled very early on as the "overly emotional child" the one with the problems, was like being forced to go through life with duck tape over my mouth.  I felt like I wasn't allowed to speak, or to express what was inside.  And today, I am surprised there are still some of those emotions left in me.

I know who I am.  I know what I felt, and I know it was right to give the little girl in me the right to finally tell her truth.

What I was not permitted to express, and what was deliberately ignored, and chastised in me when I was a child, will no longer be kept a secret.

When little girls tell the truth, sometimes it makes the people in her life uncomfortable.  The adults in our lives fail to fully comprehend that one day we won't be so little anymore.  One day, little girls become women and learn to slowly remove the sticky tape from the corners of our once silenced mouths.

My parents didn't know they were hurting me, although I have met some therapists who would disagree.  Two adult children of alcoholics, they were both victims themselves of incredulous circumstances.  Their denial so strong however, and their need to stay in control of their emotions so at the helm of their lives, telling the truth, seeing the truth, or even feeling the truth is not possible.  Emotions upset apple carts.  And adult children of alcoholics don't like having to deal with picking up apples off of the floor.  They'd prefer to ignore the stench of rotten fruit.

Backlash may or may not come as the result of me telling the world what the little girl in me always wished she had the right to say.  But I need to stay focused, and not concern myself with what may or may not be backlash from those that I love.

My soul purpose for The Road Back To Me was to foster self understanding and subsequent self responsibility through increasing others self awareness, so to facilitate others healing of old childhood wounds.  So as the criticism and accusations come to pass, I wanted my readers to know I am committed to this cause--our spiritual cause.

Little girls and boys need to tell the truth, even if those around them do everything they can to make them feel like their truth is a lie.

One day, all little girls and boys grow up like I did...and finally learn to discover The Road Back To Me.

Healing The Adult Child Within You

When you are raised by adult children of alcoholics, you are thrust into a world of scattered thoughts, mixed up feelings, and often find yourself feeling not real.  Your parents are disconnected within themselves, and don't even know that they are.  This means you, as the child are left to face the world in many aspects--alone, without any true sense of what is real, and what is not real.

Because alcoholism is like a thief that steals the soul away from its victims, the addict is unaware they are soul-less and not connecting to the ones who love them.  Those of us who live either with addicts or who are being raised by adult children of alcoholics, feel lost-disconnected-isolated-and alone.  Because we are denied healthy parents who are connected to themselves and who appreciate their own selves, our parents lack the skills required to teach us, their children how to connect to our own selves.  We then wander out into the world empty, and lacking the ability to own or even know what we think or value what we think.

Because alcoholism is a disease that is about denial, our parents deny, even to themselves there is anything wrong.  We the children feel as if EVERYTHING is wrong, but our parents--the people who should be raising and teaching us, deny us the right to even feel like everything is wrong, because they are alcoholics, or adult children who have never sought recovery.

What then is a child to do who is being raised by adult children of alcoholics who deny anything is wrong?  What then is a child supposed to do with her/his feelings of confusion, loneliness, and isolation who feels crazy or guilty for feeling what he/she feels?  What happens to children who live with parents who are so self absorbed, who are so close minded, and who are so deeply ingrained in denial, when these children feel the anxiety they do?

The Road Back To Me is a story about a little girl who was raised by two adult children of alcoholics, who were unaware and sadly unconcerned with how their own parents disease of alcoholism had effected them.

The little girl in me once was denied her right to feel, to express and to be...

The Road Back To Me was written to honor the little girl in me who never felt like she had the right to feel, to express or to be...

While writing this story, and finally finding the courage to publish it has been cathartic for me as the writer, I dedicate The Road Back To Me to all those children, regardless of their age today, who once had no voice, because alcoholism wouldn't let them speak.

Namaste...

Workshops Forming Now

I would like to know how many of my readers would be interested in attending a workshop on the issues discussed in my book The Road Back To Me.

I am considering a workshop that would be approximately two hours long, and would include a Q&A.

Essentially my idea would be focused on helping the attendees get clear about issues they may be having as it is related to healing through self awareness, and loving the self.

I would appreciate reader feedback, if possible...

Namaste....

Healing Self Esteem: Why Am I So Depressed and Always Thinking Negative...

Healing Self Esteem: Why Am I So Depressed and Always Thinking Negative...: Dear Friend, There are many very valid reasons for why you are thinking negative thoughts. You are not crazy, nor insane or bad for havin...

Why Am I So Depressed and Always Thinking Negative Thoughts

Dear Friend,

There are many very valid reasons for why you are thinking negative thoughts. You are not crazy, nor insane or bad for having a mind that has been conditioned (taught) to go one way--the wrong way.

You are not ill because your brain is more like a driver of a race car called 'Crazy Thoughts', and your awareness seems more like a spectator in the stands horrified by the speed at which the thoughts your brain holds travels.

Somewhere in that space between the car and you, as the spectator exists, is where your healing is waiting.

In that space is where all the work you will ever have to do to ever be happy--must begin.

You have not been taught to feel empowered.

Your brain has not been taught to be happy with its aloneness.

Your brain has been conditioned to think acceptance is outside of you.

Society, the media, our teachers, our parents, and our friends and family have all played a part in the creation of our belief and ultimate thought processes.

In that space deep within you, where no one has ever taught you to go--is your personal power...

And in the acting upon that consciousness, you can and will change the course of your life...

You must become more familiar with that space within you. You must embrace the darkness, get comfortable with that space, and learn to sit quietly so that you can learn to still yourself and instead of ATTACHING your consciousness to those speeding thoughts, learn to just let them fly by.

Peace is internal...and peace, although you may not believe so...is in fact within you...

But you my friend have not been taught to believe in YOU...You have been taught to believe in others, in medicine, sex, relationships, alcohol, image, things, religion, or rhetoric...

But the truth is...the kingdom of heaven is there within you, and it is just but one thought away...

Heaven is here on this earth. Heaven exists within you...and if you practice learning to get more comfortable in that space between the thoughts your brain thinks, and your awareness of those thoughts, you will learn the secret to happiness.

You are not your thoughts...

You are the still, powerful, divine observer of those thoughts.

Learning to be still is the first part of the journey. The next phase of your spiritual and emotional journey would then require you to begin consciously focusing your brain on and towards only those things that make you FEEL more positive.

First, you get still, and then with razor-like focus, practice day by day and thought by thought, the divine ability to use our free will as we desire.

You have the free will to choose the thoughts you want to think.

If you know the truth and then do not act on the truth that does not mean the truth is still not the truth.

There is one universal truth and that is--YOU ARE ENOUGH--no matter what you have ever thought before.

Namaste...

The Road Back To Me

Available Now

The Road Back To Me is my story. It is one that is drizzled with painful memories of isolation, withdrawal, confusion and even dreams about suicide. Born an incredibly intuitive and sensitive child, I was often bewildered by the insensitivity of others, and hungry for the feeling of love. As I grew, my mind decided all that I felt was my fault. The lack of love I felt was the result of my being wrong--ill--and defective in some intrinsic way.

Taught to enable, I chased after loved, shut down, toned myself down and learned to suppress my natural instincts to embrace, to share, and to express the love I had for those in my life. I knew that whatever I had to offer would either not be accepted, or perhaps ignored, or worse treated as if whatever I offered was disingenuous.

As I built a life upon these faulty concepts of my self, the choices I made became like mirrors of the disconnect within me. No one knew I was sad. No one knew I was starved for validation. And quite frankly--no one cared.

When the ability to pretend nearly gobbled me up with various types of inflammatory diseases, it was as if the decision to leave my marriage was made for me. Stay and die, or leave and live. The desire to break the cycle of codependency for the sake of my children was so strong, I divorced my then husband, believing with all of me that one day things would get better.

The Road Back To Me details the struggles I experienced big and small as a result of growing up in a family that was effected by the disease of alcoholism. My story is one that I believe has the ability to touch anyone and everyone who reads it. If you are breathing, there is something about my story that will be of a benefit to you.

It is twelve years later, and I am more aware and more humble than I ever dreamed possible. My children are well grounded, and authentic mature love has finally manifested in my life.

I no longer worry more about what others think about me,than what I think about me, nor do I obsess over what others think--I--think. Today I simply--am.

If I could wrap my arms around this whole world and hug each and everyone of us--I would...but because I cannot...I write instead. And every day as often as I can, I send love out into this place and imagine that that love finds you in some way. It may be in the appreciation of a child's smile, a flittering butterfly, or in the sweet smell of an afternoon rain--it makes no difference to me how the vibration of love finds its way to you...it only matters that it does.

May you be blessed by my book, The Road Back To Me.

Namaste

A Message To Indigo Children

It is a surreal experience to know that the very thing about you the world needs, is the very thing that those who love you looked to destroy.

When you come into this world an empath and are mocked, ignored, and chastised for being a feeling being, at times it seems as if life is unfair, and not worth living.

But if you hold on long enough, until you are able to find the courage to let go, the universe opens doors you never knew existed.

When you are an Indigo child, sometimes the most difficult thing to do, is to let go of those who say they love you, so that you can learn to share with the world the gifts you came here to share.

Feel, feel, and feel some more...It is your nature...embrace it, but most of all learn to feel good, and to shy away from those and those things that drain you rather than uplift you.

Don't worry...there is an entire universe of brothers and sisters waiting...

The Teachings of Esther Hicks

I am never not inspired by the understanding of Esther Hicks. As a devoted student of her teachings I am humbled by her interpretations of Abraham time and time again.

For anyone unafraid to think outside the box, who is aware enough not to have a knee jerk reaction to her teachings, her insight offers many a splendid things. For within her words are found the keys to joy, abundance, health and good old peace of mind.

Today, while enjoying one of her lectures on youtube, I honed in on a phrase she used that quite literally seared my mind. The phrase 'articulate awareness' perked my vibrational ears up and had me feeling quite stirred.

If all beings would 'articulate their awareness' what a wonderful place this could be. The main problem is however, that most beings aren't aware they have the power to be aware. Most beings are so bogged down by faulty programming that has them blaming others and the world for their misery, that the very concept of self awareness is one that sadly never even grazes the outskirts of their mind.

To truly manifest the life we all desire is to come into alignment with those desires.

It is irrational to set out in search of love, when a being does not yet love their own self, and believe that true healthy love will be found.

It is irrational and impossible to become rich and to stay rich if one does not 'feel' rich on an intrinsic and thus vibrational level.

We do not attract what we think we want. What we think is only a fraction of what we are. What we are is what our subconscious mind tells us we are, and without 'awareness' we beings don't have a clue to why we are getting what we are getting.

So, to my mentor Esther Hicks credit, I once again point to her key point which addresses the concept of articulating awareness.

Without awareness a being cannot make choices, because without awareness a being has no concept of the idea of choice.

An enlightened being with the ability and desire to articulate his/her own awareness, lands directly in front of the steering wheel of his/her own life. When a being begins to comprehend that the key to mastering life is found on the playing field of his/her own mind, far removed from the need to be validated by others, the ego expires, and manifestations flow.

The ego is what keeps the ability to articulate awareness stunted, because the ego is the result of societal as well as childhood programming. And as more and more teachers like Esther Hicks come forth and others share the information she so generously provides, the more beings will be blessed enough to be able to articulate their awareness, so that they may begin to manifest more deliberately the life they desire.

Esther, thank you for your teachings, your tenacity, your vigor, your willingness and the articulation of the vibrational interpretations of Abraham. I get it, and dedicate my life to passing those teachings along so that others may become more self aware.

Namaste

Bulimia, Anorexia, Food Addiction--Healing From Within

As a Personal Life Coach, I have come across an array of issues in my clients that have needed to be transformed. Because I have been one who has been brought to my knees on more than one occasion by disordered eating, I closely relate to those who are attracted into my coaching hands who are dealing with such thought processes.

This post is for all those who are drawn to this page because either they themselves, or someone they love is dealing with a thought process that has them feeling trapped in the vicious loop that anorexia, bulimia, exercise addiction, laxative and diuretic abuse can cause.

Anorexia, bulimia, exercise addiction, binge eating and alike are all symptoms of anxiety that has been caused by an emotional wound.

It is crucial that this concept is understood.

Eating disorders represent a wound. They are like the white puss that shows up around an infected gash, or bacteria in the body. The eating disorder however is NOT the wound, much like pain and puss are the result of an infection, but they are not the infection.

If you are to heal, it is essential that you allow your mind to begin separating your SELF from your disordered eating thought processes. You are NOT your dysfunctional thinking pattern. Your thinking pattern is symptomatic of a wound you have internalized, and your behavior is simply a physical manifestation in your time space reality of your thought processes...

Just as you would not blame the bullet that pierced your arm, or the infection or the pain that showed up in your body as a result of being shot, you must learn to become objective of your experience, rather than become the experience. Just as if you were shot, you would not become the bullet, the puss or the pain, you must learn to separate your self from your behaviors and begin to understand that your behaviors are a symptom of something you internalized.

What you experience internally, will always, without question show up in your physical reality.

When a pure innocent, still untouched by others judgements infant enters this world it cries when its hungry, uncomfortable, angry or sad, and when it is happy, joyful, and content it smiles. This is normal. This is healthy.

What bulimics, anorexics, and even cutters must remember is, 'is that infant is us'. That infant we once were is who we are at our core. Once, we all responded to our internal guidance system appropriately, and had no concept of harming ourselves.

As we aged, we became aware that others judge us, even if their intent was for our better good, we--we hypersensitive beings we--internalized that sense of judgement and in turn learned to believe that the world was unsafe. For whatever the reason; and it does no good to judge others--but for whatever the reason, we felt judged, we felt bad, and we hid from the world the pain their criticism, harsh judgements, their inconsideration, their perceptions of us, their sarcasm, their withdrawal, their whatever--caused a dis-ease within our minds, which lead to a disconnect from our own souls, the one our infant selves came into this world divinely connected to.

Today, as a result of feeling unsafe and out of control, now if you are depressed, you binge, purge, starve, exercise compulsively, or cut. Deeper, now as a result of the loop your brain has created to alleviate some of that anxiety through ineffective coping mechanisms, you find yourself feeling more like a passenger in the car called your life than the driver. Today, as a result of the momentum caused by your wound and all its subsequent anxiety compounded by your ineffective coping behaviors, you feel out of control, lost, ashamed, guilt ridden and worthless.

You are NOT crazy, or bad, or ill because your mind is trying NOT to feel the wounds you force your self to eat, deny or beat up.

You are NOT crazy, or bad, or ill because your mind has you carry out a behavior that allows you to, in some way, unhealthy or otherwise--to ease the anxiety you feel internally as a result of trying to escape your emotions.

If I have learned anything through my healing journey it is this; 'thoughts become things' and when I think my feelings don't matter, then my feelings don't matter. Equally, when I care more about what others think about me than what I think about me, I am consumed by anxiety over what others think about me. I have learned that all things that show up in my environment, good or bad, in someway are a reflection of what is going on inside of me, and many times it is also a reflection of what has been done to me.

I know now that no matter what has been done to me, I do not have to allow it to become me.

I know now that others that my love of self, does not require that others love me, validate me, embrace me, or deem me worthy of their love.

I know now that when others thought they were loving me, they were unaware of how I was internalizing their way of expressing love.

I know now that what I think about me is more important than what you, my society, my family or what my friends think about me.

I know now that sometimes the people we love the most, love us the least, and that that fact should have no bearing on how deeply I love and appreciate myself.

I know now no one is coming to the rescue. All I ever needed was to know in my heart on a soul level as well as on an intellectual level, that I am good, no matter what anyone else thinks.

My worth had nothing to do with how thin I was, how healthy I ate, how much exercise I did, or how often I smiled. I am worthy simply because I am, and so are YOU.

Idiot Savant--Autistics; Perhaps We Are The Idiots

We are all forms of life force energy.

Consciousness is a form of life force energy.

Consciousness is found in every dimension of our time space reality.

It is not exclusive to mankind.

The earth is conscious. Trees, grass, and flowers breath.

The sky is conscious. It expands, it exchanges gases, and it moves.

Animals are conscious. They are interconnected within their own dimension, entangled on a quantum level with similar beasts who share the same perceptional dimensional realities.

So called inanimate objects, are not still. They too are vibrational beings at their core.

Human beings share their own perception of reality, and exist on a quantum level with their own kind.

When the energy that creates the ability for a being to breath stops, physical life ends in the physical dense matter of the body. The life force however of that being lives on, and when it leaves the physical body it joins similar energies outside the physical body; outside that physical dimension.

If these ideas are true, then all of us have the potential to 'step into' whatever reality we desire while here on this physical plane. This is a multi dimensional universe with dimensions most human beings cannot perceive, not because they do not have the ability to do so, but because they do not 'believe' in the ability to do so. So caught up in the illusions of their life, they fail to think outside of the box they have thought themselves into, and continue on running the rat race they presume life is.

We are highly perceptible human beings with possibilities far greater than most of us can imagine. Savants are examples of human potential. If it is possible for a being who is presumed 'mentally handicapped' in some way to be brilliant, it is possible that we--the observers and labelers of so called idiot savants are actually the idiots, mentally handicapped by our short sided understandings of human potential.

Savants, autistics, and so called 'handicapped' beings perceive their realities uniquely, as we all do. We therefore, unknowingly all exist in an extraordinary multi dimensional world, whether we consciously acknowledge that to be true or not.

We all would fair better in this place, if we could all accept this as so, instead of ignorantly thinking everyone on this planet was intended to think, look, behave, and do as we do...

How To Enjoy Life

So often we beings forget why we were created in the first place.

So conditioned to assume and thus believe in the visions that have been flashed across our eyes since birth, we beings fall prey to ignorance. Because we have not been taught to question our programming, we naively, and perhaps ignorantly accept it. We rarely stop to wonder why our ego's are so big, or why we tend to get angry or sad over certain situations.

Most of us have not been taught how 'not to' react. Instead we are guided by our impulses, which have been spoon fed to us through various societal conditioning tools. Whether those tools were in the form of organized religions, brotherhoods, sisterhood, familial laws or profit motivated advertising, most of us are unaware of how little of 'us' is in us.

A being who does not know his own mind, is one who does not own his own mind. A being who fails to assess his own thoughts, is living only half a life; for to live is to live through volition and choice, and without awareness there can be no choice.

While all this existentialism sounds quite complicated, its not. Life was meant to flow downstream. At our core we are all love, and the more we remind ourselves of this fact, the easier our life becomes.

When a being loves themselves, they learn to tune into what brings them peace, and learns to avoid 'thinking', 'others', and 'situations' that attract chaos. When a being loves the people in his/her life, there is a natural tendency to shelter, nurture, and encourage rather than to deceive, manipulate, and control. When authentic love is present in a being, there can be no fear and no anxiety. When a couple shares authentic love, between them is only a desire to nurture and envelope the other with more love.

When love of self, and love of the others in your life is the cornerstone of your existence, life cannot help but flow downstream. Life is difficult because people make their lives difficult by turning away from love in some way, whether that is in not loving themselves, or in the dishonoring of those that love them.

If your desire is to enjoy your life, keep ever present in your minds eye a few facts.

Know that society is built on profit, and profit is rarely made on happy people who don't get sick, don't get divorced, and plant flowers as a form of recreation.

Know that your ego is tied to programming, and that the bigger it is, the bigger your personal headaches will be--guaranteed. Even the bible states; "The humble shall inherit the earth."

Know that before you the earth spun in direct proximity to the other planets of this solar system, and after you it will continue to spin, re-create life, and go on just fine without you and your mindset.

Know that unless you know why you think the way you do, 'you' aren't thinking at all.